I've often thought on the quiet days and nights sitting in the house alone that I see movement out of the corner of my eye. Something in the shadows.
All adult logic puts it down to the shadow of a tree outside blowing in the wind, or anything else that could be plausible.
The other day, I was sitting in the study, and Ardyn came in and we were talking. As she was walking out of the study, she stopped, then turned back to me and said "Who was that mum?". I asked who, and she replied "That lady that just walked by".
I was stunned. I kept asking her what she was talking about, and she kept saying that a lady walked past and went out the front door.
Spooky.
Maybe there's more in the shadows than I realise.
K xx
Monday, April 26, 2010
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Oh well
So life gets in the way.
I have a few minutes to myself, and I thought that I'd just come and type a few sentences. It's something.
I think that I need to take a leaf out of Joyce's book, and just Blog a paragraph when it comes to me.
I find that there is something that I intend to Blog about and I sort out in my head what I want to say......and then I don't say it. I guess my head thinks that it's already down.
I may just do the last couple of months as an update with pictures and start from scratch. I was talking to Sonia, Michelle and Paula about it on the weekend, and sometimes you just need to forget about what you've missed and start from NOW.
From NOW on, I plan to juggle my life better.
I hope.
K xx
I have a few minutes to myself, and I thought that I'd just come and type a few sentences. It's something.
I think that I need to take a leaf out of Joyce's book, and just Blog a paragraph when it comes to me.
I find that there is something that I intend to Blog about and I sort out in my head what I want to say......and then I don't say it. I guess my head thinks that it's already down.
I may just do the last couple of months as an update with pictures and start from scratch. I was talking to Sonia, Michelle and Paula about it on the weekend, and sometimes you just need to forget about what you've missed and start from NOW.
From NOW on, I plan to juggle my life better.
I hope.
K xx
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
I'm not sure I like this....................
.........but I have to get used to it.
When I was young, I was determined to not be a stay at home mum like my mum. I was going to do it all....work as a professional woman, have kids and keep an immaculate house. I was going to have it all together and love doing it.
Fast forward 15 years, and I give birth to who (I believe) is the most beautiful baby girl in the world. I began to understand the value of a stay at home mum, and was determined to devote my life to making sure that my kids are happy, confident and respectful members of society. The last 5 years have been spent helping Ardyn grow. Making decisions that may not have always been 100% right, but learning from my mistakes, and learning from the mistakes of my friends and family. Making sure that when the day came that she would attend school for the first time that she would be confident, friendly and most of all respectful and happy.
I worked damn hard over the last 5 years, and I think that I did what I set out to achieve. That girl amazes me every day. She is a delight to have as a daughter.
But.........
The plan was to be here to help her get ready in the morning, and be here when she gets home at night. To spend the time in between making my house a home that the kids and Cal love coming home to.
It's killing me knowing that I won't be there every day to do that. Not the way things are right now.
I have to suck it up. I have to take the 'provider' role for a while. I can't let them know that it's killing me inside.
Cal is doing a great job, don't get me wrong, and I should be happy that my kids have a parent to come home to and don't spend every day in daycare so that we can both work. I should feel happy for Cal that he gtes to spend this magical time at home with them, that I was so blessed to for so long.
But I can't help but feel a little robbed.
Things change. Life changes and we have to adapt. I have to adapt.
I now have to teach my kids that it's okay to have a role reversal, that adaptation is good, and even if I'm not here, I love them very much. People do it every day (I just never thought that it would be me).
I'm fine. I'll get there. Just needed to vent.
K xx
When I was young, I was determined to not be a stay at home mum like my mum. I was going to do it all....work as a professional woman, have kids and keep an immaculate house. I was going to have it all together and love doing it.
Fast forward 15 years, and I give birth to who (I believe) is the most beautiful baby girl in the world. I began to understand the value of a stay at home mum, and was determined to devote my life to making sure that my kids are happy, confident and respectful members of society. The last 5 years have been spent helping Ardyn grow. Making decisions that may not have always been 100% right, but learning from my mistakes, and learning from the mistakes of my friends and family. Making sure that when the day came that she would attend school for the first time that she would be confident, friendly and most of all respectful and happy.
I worked damn hard over the last 5 years, and I think that I did what I set out to achieve. That girl amazes me every day. She is a delight to have as a daughter.
But.........
The plan was to be here to help her get ready in the morning, and be here when she gets home at night. To spend the time in between making my house a home that the kids and Cal love coming home to.
It's killing me knowing that I won't be there every day to do that. Not the way things are right now.
I have to suck it up. I have to take the 'provider' role for a while. I can't let them know that it's killing me inside.
Cal is doing a great job, don't get me wrong, and I should be happy that my kids have a parent to come home to and don't spend every day in daycare so that we can both work. I should feel happy for Cal that he gtes to spend this magical time at home with them, that I was so blessed to for so long.
But I can't help but feel a little robbed.
Things change. Life changes and we have to adapt. I have to adapt.
I now have to teach my kids that it's okay to have a role reversal, that adaptation is good, and even if I'm not here, I love them very much. People do it every day (I just never thought that it would be me).
I'm fine. I'll get there. Just needed to vent.
K xx
Big Kid's School - Day 2
Ha! I'm going to go backwards. Day 2 now, Day 1 later. Typical of me to be atypical.
It is currently about 8:15am, and the girls are fed ready to go and upstairs having a dance waiting for me to tell them to get n the car. She is quick to finish her breakfast and brush her teeth so that she can put the magical blue dress on. She gets dressed after all that so that she doesn't get her dress dirty.
Ardyn loves the thought of school. She would sleep in that dress and attend on weekends if we'd let her. We're not having any issues in the morning getting her ready as yet, she is so keen.........but it's Day 2......lets wait and see how it is in about a week.
It is currently about 8:15am, and the girls are fed ready to go and upstairs having a dance waiting for me to tell them to get n the car. She is quick to finish her breakfast and brush her teeth so that she can put the magical blue dress on. She gets dressed after all that so that she doesn't get her dress dirty.
Ardyn loves the thought of school. She would sleep in that dress and attend on weekends if we'd let her. We're not having any issues in the morning getting her ready as yet, she is so keen.........but it's Day 2......lets wait and see how it is in about a week.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
HAPPY AUSTRALIA DAY!!!!
I love Australia Day. I am pretty patriotic - I love my country. We are so lucky to live in the BEST country in the world. I shed a tear whenever I hear our National Anthem - which was a bit of a problem when I was reffing. Not a great look to wipe a tear away while you blow your whistle to start eh game - so professional. But I know I wasn't the only one.
What I do miss though is spending the day with friends, hanging around the barbie, downing a few beers. The last couple of years we have spent it driving 8 hours back from Bundalong, which isn't nice - although spending the whole weekend with friends is better than one day.
I missed Bundalong this year, as I had to work yesterday. Cal went with the girls, so while they are driving home today, I have spent the day making the house a beautiful clean and organised home.
I'm almost done. So proud of myself.
I can't wait for them to be back. Only a few hours to go.
Hopefully back later with some photos. (I told you I'm getting organised)
K xx
What I do miss though is spending the day with friends, hanging around the barbie, downing a few beers. The last couple of years we have spent it driving 8 hours back from Bundalong, which isn't nice - although spending the whole weekend with friends is better than one day.
I missed Bundalong this year, as I had to work yesterday. Cal went with the girls, so while they are driving home today, I have spent the day making the house a beautiful clean and organised home.
I'm almost done. So proud of myself.
I can't wait for them to be back. Only a few hours to go.
Hopefully back later with some photos. (I told you I'm getting organised)
K xx
Saturday, January 23, 2010
I suck!!!
My promises are apparently worth nothing. I have been so busy, that I haven't had much of a chance to even scratch myself. And the time that I do have I spend not updating my Blog. :( That has to change.
I haven't updated with the big stuff for ages, so I'll start with the little recent stuff, and hopefully I'll get to the big stuff down the track - but not too soon down the track.
I saw Avatar today. What a movie!!!! I can understand what all the fuss is about now. It's amazing. If you haven't seen it, I highly recommend it. Remember to go to the loo before hand, as it is very long, but well worth it. If they edited it down, or made it into two movies, it just wouldn't be the same movie.
It was lovely to spend some time today just shopping and going to the movies. Cal and the kids have gone to Bundalong for the usual Australia Day waterskiing weekend, but I couldn't go as I have to work on Monday, and they aren't coming back until Tuesday. Work......have I Blogged about that yet? Later for that one.
So they left this morning and even though the house needed a good clean, I decided to put that off until tomorrow as the tempertaure was due to get to 40 degrees. I feel for the folks out in the West. (How did you go Lis??) So I decided to cruise down to Rhodes and make a visit to Ikea. Airconditioning and Scandanavian design. A sure winner.
I also did a little bit of 'little girl' shopping for my girls and upcoming birthdays, and a couple of basic tops for me. Then it was on to the shoes..........yay for shoe shopping!!!! My work shoes died yesterday, so I need to get myself a pair of practical flats (preferably cute Mary Janes).
I headed over the Chatswood for these, and found out that Myer were having 25% off most of the footwear department. I found the PERFECT pair that fell into the 25% off sale, and wouldn't you know it, they didn't have them in my size. Typical. But what they DID have in my size were the cutest pair of Mary Jane court shoes that were very reasonably priced (verging on cheap), so they came home with me instead. I will have to pop over to the Mall tomorrow to see if Myer there has my shoes, and if not, up to Hornsby (with a visit to Catchy Crafts - hehe).
Then Avatar. What a nice day to just do what I want when I wanted.
I came home for a nice dinner and a couple of glasses of wine, and now I'm updating here, and then going to start a little clean out. While I'm home by myself I plan on getting done all those crappy little jobs that you never get around to doing, like cleaning out the filing cabinet and pantry, and sorting through the kids toys and books. It's a plan, but like a lot of my plans lately, I don't know how much of it will get done.
Well I can hope.
So yay! I updated. I will do more soon. I'm determined to get myself organised. Lots of changes have been going on around here, and there are more to come.
For now, enjoy your Saturday night. I'm off to pour myself another wine, put on a movie and sort through the filing cabinet.
K xx
I haven't updated with the big stuff for ages, so I'll start with the little recent stuff, and hopefully I'll get to the big stuff down the track - but not too soon down the track.
I saw Avatar today. What a movie!!!! I can understand what all the fuss is about now. It's amazing. If you haven't seen it, I highly recommend it. Remember to go to the loo before hand, as it is very long, but well worth it. If they edited it down, or made it into two movies, it just wouldn't be the same movie.
It was lovely to spend some time today just shopping and going to the movies. Cal and the kids have gone to Bundalong for the usual Australia Day waterskiing weekend, but I couldn't go as I have to work on Monday, and they aren't coming back until Tuesday. Work......have I Blogged about that yet? Later for that one.
So they left this morning and even though the house needed a good clean, I decided to put that off until tomorrow as the tempertaure was due to get to 40 degrees. I feel for the folks out in the West. (How did you go Lis??) So I decided to cruise down to Rhodes and make a visit to Ikea. Airconditioning and Scandanavian design. A sure winner.
I also did a little bit of 'little girl' shopping for my girls and upcoming birthdays, and a couple of basic tops for me. Then it was on to the shoes..........yay for shoe shopping!!!! My work shoes died yesterday, so I need to get myself a pair of practical flats (preferably cute Mary Janes).
I headed over the Chatswood for these, and found out that Myer were having 25% off most of the footwear department. I found the PERFECT pair that fell into the 25% off sale, and wouldn't you know it, they didn't have them in my size. Typical. But what they DID have in my size were the cutest pair of Mary Jane court shoes that were very reasonably priced (verging on cheap), so they came home with me instead. I will have to pop over to the Mall tomorrow to see if Myer there has my shoes, and if not, up to Hornsby (with a visit to Catchy Crafts - hehe).
Then Avatar. What a nice day to just do what I want when I wanted.
I came home for a nice dinner and a couple of glasses of wine, and now I'm updating here, and then going to start a little clean out. While I'm home by myself I plan on getting done all those crappy little jobs that you never get around to doing, like cleaning out the filing cabinet and pantry, and sorting through the kids toys and books. It's a plan, but like a lot of my plans lately, I don't know how much of it will get done.
Well I can hope.
So yay! I updated. I will do more soon. I'm determined to get myself organised. Lots of changes have been going on around here, and there are more to come.
For now, enjoy your Saturday night. I'm off to pour myself another wine, put on a movie and sort through the filing cabinet.
K xx
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