Monday, August 30, 2010

Did nothing

How the hell is it possible to be tired when I did nothing today? Maybe that's it. I did nothing. But I'm tired when I actually do stuff too - so how does one actually win the battle?

Had a weekend that went all too fast (but don't they all?). Going backwards, I had a stall at this market yesterday. It was fun. I got rid of a few things for me and some girlfriends, I got to spend the morning chatting with my girlfriend who I haven't seen for a while, and just did something....if you know what I mean. I may get the bug for this market thing. It was quite enjoyable.

Yesterday afternoon I just played with the family, and had a great time hanging out. The kids had been on the go so much for the few days leading up to the weekend, that they needed a day of just doing not much.

Saturday afternoon we headed to the Newport Arms to help my lovely friend Sarah celebrate her 40th birthday. It was an afternoon of lots of food, wine, sunshine and fun, and was very enjoyable.

Friday night Ardyn had a movie night at school. Basically that involved the kids coming back the the school hall at 7pm with pillows and blankies and watching a movie - although from what I've heard not much watching was done, but a good time was had by all. "Loud" would be the work for the night. Ardyn was picked up by the lovely Emma and went for a sleepover at their place. She must be a glutton for punishment. After a week of school, swimming, ballet, netball and an extra night out, she was happy to deal with two 6 year olds giggling and talking and doing anything but sleeping.

And now it's Monday, and I did NOTHING today. Well I did really. I played personal assistant to the family. a lot of what I call 'office work'. That involves getting quotes to work out how much it would cost to travel to the Sunshine Coast for a wedding, getting quotes to get the car serviced (and then booked in), organising plumbers, paying it looks like I did actually do something. Ha!

Now off to do some more, but domestic stuff this time. Dishes, dinner, kids......with a coffee thrown into the mix.
Does it ever stop? And I don't think that this is a 'stay at home mum' thing, I think it's a 'mum' you agree?

K xx

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

It's the little things

Sometimes you just need a good laugh, and I found this Blog via this one, and have been chuckling, giggling and sometimes even shedding a tear I've guffawed so much.

I haven't had a good laugh in ages.

K xx

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Chang of Plans.....

In a whole(what's it been?)........half an hour or so, I've changed my mind. I remembered that I have a copy of Bob Harper's book "Are You Ready?", and I thought that it I am going to motivate myself by reading and acting on them, I can do it with Bob.

His book provides as much as Michelle's program in so much as you pretty much have to motivate yourself through reading and doing, so here I go.......

The last 18 months or so have taken it's toll on me. I don't feel like 'me'. And since Cal went back to work in May, I haven't had the chance to get into a routine that included me. This is my time.

I am starting to feel a bit more balanced in so far as our family routines and now I need to inject some time for me. And I am going to. I am determined to.

I plan on keeping a journal of the changes that I make, how I feel and such, but I"m not sure whether to create a Blog or write it down. I may create a Blog, but keep it Private. This is not a journey that I am brave enough to share with everyone. I may in the future, or to a select few (I think that I may need some support) but not everyone.

So off I go. First baby steps - less coffee, more water, more sleep. I can start there.
Wish me luck.
K xx



I need something to help me right now. I need something to motivate me. Perhaps this is it? My gym membership certainly isn't doing it.

Considering my options. Need to make some serious changes.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010


I was thinking today that after a crapola few days, I should really be thankful. I have so much good stuff in my life, but we only ever Blog/Tweet/FB about the bad stuff.

I started thinking about how thankful I am that my beautiful, healthy, spunky girls are growing up and trying to make decisions for themselves (albeit not great ones, but pushing some boundaries nonetheless), I am thankful for a husband to loves me and is patient with me even though I can get all psycho bitch at times, and even though he doesn't agree with everything that I do, he supports me to the best of his abilities, I am thankful for the gorgeous weather that we are having, I am thankful for my friends who I know will be here for me in whatever capacity they can, I am thankful much. And I refuse to be the 'glass half empty' girl today.

Then at 10:10am this post landed in my inbox.

How bizarre. It was meant to be. Fate. Kismet.
This is what I needed to hear (or read as the case may be) today.

I do Love My Life, and right now I am going to go and wake up the smallest Love of My Life and pick up the middle one. And tonight I will tell the biggest one how much I love him. Bugger that, I'm gong to do it right now.

How about you go and tell someone you love them too.
K xx

Monday, August 16, 2010

What the....?????

Does it stop? Ever?!?!?!

Today was just ANOTHER of 'those' days.

In the bliss of the girls playing outside yesterday, they decided to take a 'trip' in my car. That involves playing in my car which is parked in the garage and pretending that they are on a journey. They take books and 'treasures' out there and play. It keeps them happy, and if they are happily playing, I am happy too.

Until this morning.

With all of last night's grief behind us, we had a great morning. The girls got up and ready for school without issues, ate breakfast, packed bags, played quietly. Awesome.
Into the car at the exact time that I wanted to get away, and when I tried to put my seat in the correct position (as it had been moved in yesterday's journey), it wouldn't move. Electric seats. I turned the ignition. Nothing. Looked around the interior of the car, and I saw the interior lights were turned on, but not actually on.

BUGGER!!!!! The anger rose in my so quickly that I think that I scared the girls. I was LIVID!

First thought was to walk up to where Cal's car is parked to catch the bus and just use that. Then I remembered that he had driven to the airport yesterday to go to a funeral in Melbourne today. And what else was in Cal's car? The jump leads.

Didn't have time to call the NRMA and wait for them to make an appearance.

Called my girlfriend who I KNEW had jumpers and she didn't answer.


Called another family from school, who I knew the dad was on a day off, asking for help. They didn't have any jumper cables either....but then......... N0t only did they come over and pick Ardyn up to take her to school with their daughter (and they were both subsequently late), but they bought over their second car, gave me the key and told me to relax, take Bailey to daycare and get done whatever I needed to get done. We will worry about my car and returning theirs later.

OMG!!! There are actually people like this in the world, and I am blessed to be able to call them my friends. Words cannot express my gratitude and love for this family. And I have only known them since February when our kids started in the same class together. Actually, the mum I've only really known since April, and the dad I ran in to at a few parties in March and April. And they do this for me.

After I had run my morning errands (with a few shuffled into tomorrow's schedule) I came home and called the NRMA to get them to jump me and check that the battery hadn't been damaged. All good there, took the car for a spin to get it charged up, but the CD player seems to have been fried. :( Still hoping that it's just that there's not enough juice getting to it. The car is currently on the charger. Will wait and see what the morning brings.

But then, while i was out driving/charging they called to say that they were at my place . They came to not only get their car, but to make sure that I was okay, stayed to make sure that I was okay, he checked my CD player to see if he could make it work, and even played around with the pump in our pond to try to get that going (all without being asked).

Can you say BLESSED?!?!?! Can you say AWESOME!!!

I am still in shock that a day that started out so bad, could turn out so positive. I'm still not happy that today was a write-off and that my busy week has just been made busier, but there is a warm, fuzzy glow associated with today. I have found a couple who are the real deal. They are loving, generous and kind. Rare traits found in today's society.

How lucky do I feel that they are a part of our lives??

I am looking forward to the rest of the week. It can't get any worse, and if it does, there's always a light at the end of the tunnel.

K xx

Oh, and there's now a ban on the computer too.

Saturday, August 14, 2010

Sounds so sweet - never lasts

On Friday we had a real Friday 13th type of day. It was just EVIL. It culminated in the kids being banned form TV for 2 days, and if during the 2 days they ask to turn the TV on, another day was added on. Sounds extreme, but my God, they deserved it. For two generally well-behaved kids (I mean, kids will be kids) they were just utterly disobedient. Time for a lesson.

As we stand at this moment, they don't get any TV until Wednesday. They'll learn.

In the last couple of days, we have had good and bad moments, but the good have been oh-so sweet!

Yesterday I was sitting in the study doing....I can't even remember, and then I heard it. The giggling, the glee. It was the girls playing out in the driveway on their scooters. Zooming down the hill at (what seems like to them) break-neck speeds, and just generally having fun out in the sun together. I love those moments.

Yesterday they rediscovered their friendship.
Yesterday they enjoyed the sun.
Yesterday they didn't watch TV.
Yesterday they were so sweet.

It was the sweetest of sweet.

Today was actually a good day too - until the end of it. But it was explainable.

I took the girls and a friend of Ardyn's out to see the new Tinkerbell movie. It was only playing at one (relatively close) cinema for a short time. It was today or never - or at least until it came out on DVD.

So off to a strange Shopping Centre, stuck in roadworks, not sure if we'll make it, got there, no idea where to park, then no idea where the cinema so bloody big, wandering around in circles...........then we find it. Get our tickets and popcorn and find the cinema. The girls were so excited. We were the first in the cinema and they were running up and down the aisles, giggling and playing and putting the BIGGEST smile on my place.

It was a great movie too.
Then 90 minutes later we wandered around the strange shopping centre trying to find a craft store coz the kids wanted some stuff to play with, then more wandering and going up and down various escalators to find the car, found the to Maccas!!!!

Of course no one ate anything because they had too much popcorn and lollies, but they enjoyed having a kids do.
Back to Charlotte's house, crafting, playing rock band, coffee for me, relax........

When we got home, there was some more happy playing, but before too long the nightmare began. Fueled by exhaustion we all started attacking each other. The kids were crying at anything, I couldn't handle them. Cal's not here to offer any relief (he's in Melbourne as a dear, dear friend's father passed away during the week, and the funeral is tomorrow). I feel so bad with how the day ended. How the weekend ended. We had had such a lovely time and it just feels like I destroyed it. I hope that by the morning they have had a good night's sleep, and have forgotten all about it. I hope that by the morning I have had a good night's sleep and have forgotten all about it.

Just going to watch Offspring and then head off to nigh nighs. Busy week ahead. Lots of baking to be done. Lots of cleaning to be done. And a very special third birthday to enjoy at the end of it. Something to look forward to. And I am really looking forward to it.

K xx

Sunday, August 8, 2010

Retreat Weekend

I had a FANTASTIC time at the Forever Always Retreat this weekend. It was the first time that I have been to their retreat, but the 14th that Sonia has hosted. I highly recommend it to any crafters out there. It wasn't just about scrapbooking, there was sewing as well, but you could pretty much come along and do anything. And 'anything' doesn't just mean craft-related activities. You can craft, bush walk, take photos, whatever. I even debated taking a book and a bottle of wine and just relaxing, but of course I filled my boot full of scrapping supplies and made my way to Glengarry to spend a few days attempting to find my creative self.

This is a fantastic property for a craft retreat. Even though the accommodations are basic, you have run of house, the conference room stays open 24 hours for those late night bursts of inspiration, and it's in a beautiful setting close to home - well my home anyway.

Sonia holds a true 'family' retreat. The FA Design Team are tight knit, a lot of the women attending have been to all 14 retreats and know each other quite well, and Sonia's family are there to pitch in to set up and pack up, cook us the most fabulous meals all weekend, and just be friendly and supportive. Even though I knew only a couple of people before I went, I was made to feel at home and a member of the family.

Relax. I did.

I spent a wonderful time scrapping and sewing and chatting and eating and drinking and talking and just hanging out.
Did I say that I highly recommend it to anyone wanting a relaxing weekend away?

I have found the urge to create again.....and I need to use up some of this stash that I have been "collecting". So I have signed up to join in the Blue Bazaar Scrap Bootcamp on their forum to get through it all so that I can condone spending money on more product - hehe.

I also logged into my Big Picture account to see what workshops I can do from there, and ended up signing in to participate in their Big Idea Festival. More chance for creativity.

Basically, I am determined to get through my stash, contribute to a community and chisel sometime for me out of my crazy schedule to get a little bit creative. Can you tell?

Wish me luck....even better, who's joining me?????
K xx